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It has been way to long.....

So it has been a while since I last posted. So let me just jump back into to it. I am trying to get back into church. It has not been easy at all. The more I try to get back into church the more I question God. Is this normal? I am a Christian I believe in God but I am questioning if he is really there for me. If he is why is he putting me through all of this stuff. I left the church I grew up in and I am trying out different churches I found a couple I like. But it doesn't feel right to be in church when I am questioning God. So is this normal? I have trusted God for a long time and have got nothing in return but disapointment. Should I still trust him still am I wrong to question him? Is it wrong to ask why? I know I ramble and I have no clue if this post makes any since.But I really needed to get all of this out.

I Am So Confused...............

Ok so I am so to fill out this paper for working in children ministries at my church.One question has stump me.What is my Tesimony? I don't know the answer to this Question.I mean I remember Acepting Jesus into my heart When I was Seven.It was during the christmas program at my church during invitation.I went and talk with Miss Barbara and then we prayed.A couple months later we started going to another church because it was closer to home.I wanted to be baptized so I talked to Miss Cheryl about it I we decided Oct. 6th 1999 was the day.So Miss Cheryl Baptised me because I was closer to her then her husband.I was so happy and that was short lived.Because we decide to back to my old church the one that I am going to now.Be cause the church I was baptized in was moving and it was farther away then the church I am going to now.But when Certain people Found out a woman baptised me they told me my baptism wasn't real.It wasn't the right way.That it wasn't how God wanted it to be.So I felt like I wasn't a real christian.I quit going to church for a while.Then I went off and on for ten years then I decided to get baptised again and maybe it would make me fill better.I thought maybe it would make fill like a real Christian and it did for a little while.Then at Falls Creek I Knew I need something more.so I talked to a couple of sponsors and I decided to follow God with everything I have.Everything was good til the Arizona mission trip.I was talking with this girl She was deciding to Acept jesus into her heart and was asking Questions and I answered them but I wasn't sure that I truly believed what I said.I wasn't sure if even I was a christian.So here I am leading people to christ and I myself am not sure if I am a christian.So that night I talked with a sponsor and I decided to rededicate my life to jesus.I was happy I felt great.It has been almost two years since that night and here I am just as confused because I don't know what my testimony.I mean is this my tesimony? Am I a real Christian? I am so confused............

I Am..............

I am Hurt.
I am Upset.
I am Mad.
I am Sad.
I am Angry.
I don't know how you could do this.I will always love you.You are my brother.But Right now I don't like you.I hate you.You put me down.Made me feel like I am not good enough.But it is over now I am Moving on.You can't drag me down know more.I Am not going to let you drag me down anymore.

It's been a while.....

It has been a while since I made my last post so let me catch you up.Well lets see my brother has decided not to talk or see any of the family so it has been months since I have seen or spoke to him or seen my nephew.The hard part about my brother not being around is I don't get to see my nephew.My brother and I have not gotten along in a long timeNo matter how hard I tried.I was never good enough for him so I gave up trying to please him and focused more on pleasing God.So I was reading my bible and this passage really spoke to me.Daniel 2:19-23

19 During the night the mystery was revealed to Daniel in a vision. Then Daniel praised the God of heaven 20 and said:

“Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever;
wisdom and power are his.
21 He changes times and seasons;
he deposes kings and raises up others.
He gives wisdom to the wise
and knowledge to the discerning.
22 He reveals deep and hidden things;
he knows what lies in darkness,
and light dwells with him.
23 I thank and praise you, God of my ancestors:
You have given me wisdom and power,
you have made known to me what we asked of you,
you have made known to us the dream of the king.”

So I hope this passage speaks to you as much as it speaks to me.
Thanksgiving,Christmas, and New years were all great.
My grandma's birthday started out great til Noah my nephew had an allergic reaction and we had to call 911.Luckly he didn't have go to the hospital his medicine kick in by the time the paramedics got here.But it was scary for a while.So that past and a few hours later there was a drive by shooting just a few house down.But no one was hurt thank God.So was a rough night But God was there watching over us.So the past few days have great though.2010 was good to me went on a mission trip to arizona over the summer and almost all of my girls in my cabin accepted Jesus as there Lord and Savior.The one other girl in my cabin that didn't come to know Christ While I was there came to know him just a few weeks ago.I was so happy to here that.I am also a Sunday School teacher for 2 year olds and love it.So I have learned alot over the past year.God is always here for you know matter what you think.I have also got my passion for God back.So I think that is all for now.

Til I type again,
Emilie

Happy Anniversay Mom and Dad!!!

So today is my parents 31st Anniversary.I have been there for some of there ups and downs.With God anything is possible even marriage.I hope I have a marriage half as good as my parents.

I just don't under stand

I just don't under stand why we are fighting.Why aren't we standing together in unity.Instead we are divided.It makes angry,sad, and upset I don't what to do but pray.All I want to do is cry.You say you are an adult, a christian you say you are a mature Christian but you don't act like it.I know it is not christian like to judge and yet we all do.You have your mind made before you know truth or even know what really is going on.You throw a tantrum .you make up lies and you call yourselfs christian.Why do you want to go out of your way to hurt people.This is hard for me.I want to leave you this.If judgment looms under every steeple if lofty glances from lofty people Can't see past her scarlet letter and we've never even met her.That is part of song I thought it fit this situation.

Til I type again.
Emilie